THE BACKSTAGE
there's so much going on
unspoken in the back
of the mind

August 31, 2014

Virtuous wife

Who can find a virtuous wife?
For her worth is far above rubies. 

The heart of her husband safely trusts her; So he will have no lack of gain.  
She does him good and not evil, all the days of her life.
She seeks wool and flax, And willingly works with her hands.
She is like the merchant ships, She brings her food from afar. 

She also rises while it is yet night, And provides food for her household,
And a portion for her maidservants. She considers a field and buys it;
From her profits she plants a vineyard.

She girds herself with strength, And strengthens her arms.
She perceives that her merchandise is good, And her lamp does not go out by night.
She stretches out her hands to the distaff, And her hand holds the spindle.
She extends her hand to the poor, Yes, she reaches out her hands to the needy.
She is not afraid of snow for her household, For all her household is clothed with scarlet.

She makes tapestry for herself; Her clothing is fine linen and purple.
Her husband is known in the gates, When he sits among the elders of the land.
She makes linen garments and sells them, And supplies sashes for the merchants.

Strength and honor are her clothing; She shall rejoice in time to come.

She opens her mouth with wisdom, And on her tongue is the law of kindness.
She watches over the ways of her household, And does not eat the bread of idleness.
Her children rise up and call her blessed; Her husband also, and he praises her:
“Many daughters have done well, But you excel them all.”

Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing, But a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised.


Give her of the fruit of her hands, And let her own works praise her in the gates.

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I believe we know exactly what we need. We know our strengths and weaknesses at the same time. We know how to make our lives more meaningful, yet under whatever reasons, we just let ourselves get carried away. Something is definitely wrong here. Please tell me why.

August 29, 2014

Amazed

This person seriously has no idea how amazing he is. To be short, he is one of the nicest things that ever happened to my life. Just one out of few people that I truly respect and adore. He is just kind-hearted, above all. And the fact that he might not even realize it, amazes me even more. 

But,
what kind of people am I for him?

August 13, 2014

Ratih, jangan stres.

Recognize your limitations and don’t overdo it.
Don’t get too down on yourself for not getting things done.
Try to eliminate thoughts revolving around a need to be “productive”.
Recognize your needs and articulate them, especially when it comes to relationships with others.
Realize there’s nothing wrong with being “selfish”.

Cry when you need to.
Identify and eliminate toxic people and behaviors from your life.
Remember, you’re allowed to say “NO”, and you deserve love too.
Taking care of yourself and putting yourself first in a capitalist system is a form of resistance.