THE BACKSTAGE
there's so much going on
unspoken in the back
of the mind

May 25, 2012

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When faced with  two choices, simply toss a coin. It works not because it settles the question for you , but because in that brief moment when the coin is in the air, you suddenly know what you are hoping for

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And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see people in life break one by one.


You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it’s already happened.

May 22, 2012

I do.

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn’t?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn’t?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way?
I do.


Dokter Hanura


“ Bapak Dekan kalian memberikan  Field Lab ini salah satunya untuk mengembangkan hati nurani kalian. Jaman sekarang ini dokter lebih pilih buka praktik di kota, jadi dokter rumah sakit. Kebanyakan mengeluh saat mendapat surat kerja di daerah, apalagi di daerah yang terpencil. Kalian dilatih mulai sekarang untuk memberi pelayanan di daerah. Jadi dokter di rumah sakit juga harus tau posyandu itu seperti apa, bagaimana cara mengukur LILA yang benar. Yang penting ya supaya kalian nanti lulus, jadi dokter yang berhati nurani, dokter hanura.” begitu pesan dari kepala puskesmas yang tadi kami kunjungi.

Nah, yang mana pilihanmu? Menjadi dokter-akses-pelayanan-mudah atau mengedepankan rasa kemanusiaan? Kalau soal gaji, honor, upah, semuanya itu akan kau dapatkan seiring tanggung jawab yang kau penuhi.

PS: My apologize for my lovely group, B19 family, sorry for have such of bad temper on that day and recent :(. My fault. 

May 20, 2012

dear you, yes you.

Just in case you wondered, but I guess you wouldn’t. I just think that THIS has to stop. I have to stop seeing you, thinking of you, consider your opinion on what I did, what I am doing or what I am going to do.
Or, the thing that I used to do, shared my stupid daily stuff with you. Or, wishing you were here listened to what I say.
This really has to stop.
Right NOW!!!
Just like smokers, when I thinking of this, I am doing this right away. I start counting the second not having any interaction with you. Direct or indirect. If I fail once, I will start again counting from one. Until some time in the future, you’ll be simply forgotten.

Mengapa kamu harus berlengah dan mencoba membandingkannya dengan yang lain?
Ingat..jangan pernah mengejar kesempurnaan, karena kelak kamu akan kehilangan yang terbaik yang sudah kamu raih dan kamu akan menyesal.


May 14, 2012

Sahabat. The best friends.


Tau gambar apa ini?
Gambar sebuah persahabatan
tanpa memandang apa dan siapa kamu.

May 08, 2012

Seandainya

Seandainya 18 tahun yang lalu tidak terjadi apa-apa
Aku akan punya kakak laki-laki yang ganteng, gagah, yang akan selalu melindungi
Aku akan menjadi anak nomor dua dan tanggung jawab ku tidak sebesar ini
Aku akan diajari cara main DOTA, PES, dan begadang bersama demi menonton pertandingan MU
Aku akan diantar jemput ke kampus setiap hari, dan sebelum pulang mampir ke gramedia lalu duduk disana berjam-jam sambil membaca buku kesukaan
Aku akan memainkan piano diiringi nada-nada gitarnya

Tapi sekarang Mas Wahyu ku sudah disana
Dan aku nggak akan menyesal sedikitpun mas. Menggantikan posisimu sebagai anak sulung
Akan kujalani semua tanggung jawab ini. Akan kubuat Mas bangga.

Happy Birthday.

Success?



"What does success means to you?"


"I think, success is a state of mind where we are simply happy because we are living a life we love."

So never quantify success, for success is not an objective. It is not defined by figures or ranks, but it makes your mind and heart ready for whatever number you'll achieve.You are a successful person if you have managed to wake up every morning and smile because you know you got the whole day to do what you love.