Up to one extent that I simply can't take it anymore. My head is too full, questioning a lot of things. Those questions seemed to crash one another inside the brain, waiting to be answered, or at least paid attention.
Jump to the international health course makes me realize that those health problems happening in my country are not because of our determinants of health, it's happening everywhere, in every part of this globe. It's there for years and stays still though many experts been there since the very beginning.
Life is a complicated merely. There are not many changes. As much as people want to change, they stay the same. I remain the same, with more or less the same complication. Life threw me into a different world, the one that I have never imagined before.
It is hard, but it is also easy. It is just full of contradiction. You want to be thankful, yet things get tough many times. You want to make an impact at work, but the situation is quite toxic you know you'll get affected. You want to be rational, but you can't help being too emotional. And so on and the opposite.
So you get confused most of the times. And I am not sure if that is a good sign or a bad sign. There are just way too many things you want to achieve, but you need to face the ugly truth that it is not happening. You want to be extraordinary, but you like the ordinary.
Or maybe it is the human part of life, or of a human. Human just don't change. Human just like to stay comfortable.
Or it may not.
I am seriously not sure. I get even more confused the more I write.
