#edisi lagi belajar nulis agak bener

People can hope, and even they can imagine how it feels like when their dreams come true. But sometimes, life will turn it all around. 

There’s is a verse in the bible who said that,
”He has made everything right in its time; but He has made their hearts without knowledge, so that man is unable to see the works of God, from the first to the last.“ 

So I must say, Thank God. Everything that happens and happened to me, is all because of the power of God. Maybe some of you will think of that why is my writing becomes suddenly religious? Well, that’s God, He makes Miracle. Sometimes in some point, you won’t believe that everything is finally come to the right places, you doubt yourself.
Why? Because you think that you’re not worth it. Then again, that’s human. We can’t be heartless to think that even though we do good deeds almost everyday, every seconds in our life, but it isn’t good enough, well that just me. 

Someone just came into my life, well his already in my life for some times really. He taught me to not become a person who is not appreciate themselves, every person has the same chance to become great about them in their lifes.
Well, every single thing, every single person, and even every single problems can taught you a lot.
It’s your choice to show that you can, by your choices. Are you ready to continue your hopes and dreams, Or will it make you stop and feel sorry ‘bout your lifes?

Your choice.

listen.

i was on a journey to listening the world
the journey that I want to transform into words

words, that perhaps, I have never heard before

would you care to stop for a while?

would you mind sitting next to me?

listen,

this is a story,

not only about hearing, but also listening.

One Does Not Simply

Bersyukurlah bahwa kamu belum siap memiliki segala sesuatu yang kamu inginkan. Seandainya sudah, apalagi yang harus diinginkan?

Bersyukurlah apabila kamu tidak tahu sesuatu, karena itu memberimu kesempatan untuk belajar.

Bersyukurlah untuk masa-masa sulit, karena justru di masa itulah kamu bertumbuh.

Bersyukurlah untuk keterbatasanmu, karena itu memberimu kesempatan untuk berkembang.

Bersyukurlah untuk kesalahan yang kamu buat, itu akan mengajarkan pelajaran yang berharga.

Bersyukurlah bila kamu lelah dan letih, karena itu berarti kamu telah membuat suatu perbedaan.

Mungkin mudah untuk kita bersyukur kan hal-hal yang baik. Namun hidup yang berkelimpahan datang pada mereka yang juga bersyukur akan masa yang surut.

-teks misa Gereja St. Antonius Purbayan

Paresis

It means weakness.
Why? What happen with me?

Tau lagu Coldplay yang Fix You kan? Yaudah kaya gitu.
Ketika kita merasa sudah berusaha mengejar suatu target dengan sepenuh hati, dengan seluruh tenaga dan kemampuan yang kita punya, tapi ternyata hasilnya sangat sangat sangat jauh dari apa yang jadi harapan. Itu sakit bro. Otak dan badan ini tak mau mengalah, mereka bilang saya harus berusaha lebih giat. Dengan cara apa lagi?

Mungkin memang tanda kalau kita terlalu lena dan tidak mensyukuri segala apa yang dihadirkanNya.
Dan saya ditegur, lalu diingatkan kembali dalam hal itu, hari ini :)

Kalau mau dinilai tingkat kekacauannya, akhir-akhir ini memang yang paling parah sepanjang sejarah. Sepele sih, tapi karena yang biasanya "Puji Tuhan,enggak" kini diganti dengan anggukan kecil dengan hiasan senyuman getir. Lari dari masalah juga bukan pilihan yang bertanggung jawab, tapi, kadang raga meronta lelah, merasa lebih lemah, ingin menyatakan "sudah". Rasanya juga lebih jauuuuh sama Yang Maha Pengampun, dan sejujurnya saya yang sekarang sangat jarang ke gereja. Bahkan untuk misa ekaristi setiap hari minggu saja, rasanya berat.

Could I get back my passions and motivations? My normal life like when I was in highschool, my good friends & supportive persons around?

Judgeful People

People judge.
No matter wherever you are, they’re gonna be there and say bad things about you. Whether its true or not they don’t care. And sure it's gonna hurt your feelings.

Well, you know what? That’s life. 

I always said that is a life we living so full of positiveness, but sometimes I feel like no one gets me, like I’m one of the selfish person on earth. That’s why people can’t stand me for a long time. Like they’re keep rejecting me. I know we as humans have our flaws and everything but sometimes we need someone who will accept us for who we are, like our family.

Is that too much to ask for?

Anatomy-madness. Lovely.

-teman menghabiskan malam minggu dan minggu pagi tercinta-

mangatttt semester 3!

time-ing. timing.

And again, a post about love. The upside downs of love.
If we had a great person, who we know that he’s just perfect for us but he’s not coming in a perfect time. Indeed, a right person, but wrong timing. All of our efforts that already been given to the person we love, is just not enough when the time is wrong. This kinda reflect to what I’m feeling now. I had a person, a perfect one. But, it’s just the bad timing, wrong timing. I don’t know what else to share, what else to feel when I lose him, still now. But, life’s goes on. It really doesn’t end up like we plan to be, but even better, sometimes.
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Cobalah Mengerti (Momo Geisha Cover) - sorry for the pitchy voice.