THE BACKSTAGE
there's so much going on
unspoken in the back
of the mind

September 10, 2014

Things are Getting Better

Hi, kind people who have a lot of spare time to read my blog! hehe.
On 4-7th September 2014, my 4 friends (ya you can read it as 3 best friends and 1 boyfriend) and I joined Asia-Pacific Global Health Conference at AIMST University, Malaysia. We came to present our 3 posters (from only 10 selected abstracts around the world, Hallelujah). Besides presenting posters, we also attended many keynotes, joined Medical Olympiad and workshops, and get a lot of new friends from other countries. Five of us trying to boost our University and Indonesia, but in fact, the acceptance of our friends in Indonesia is in contrast with what we expected. 
Do they envy? Then why?
You also have the opportunity, what matters is how you use that opportunity as much as possible.
IDC! Anyway, it's an honor to have my university's name&logo in an international event!
I will try harder, be more widen my wings, jump as high as the stars. Because all the prayers and advice of my parents are stronger than all the insults from people around me.

Wish me luck!

September 01, 2014

Woman is The Reflection of...


"My wife got sick. She was constantly nervous because of problems at work, personal life, her failures and children. She lost 30 pounds and weighted about 90 pounds. She got very skinny and was constantly crying. She was not a happy woman. She had suffered from continuing headaches, heart pain and jammed nerves in her back and ribs. She did not sleep well, falling asleep only in the mornings and got tired very quickly during the day. Our relationship was on the verge of a break up. Her beauty was leaving her somewhere, she had bags under her eyes, she was poking her head, and stopped taking care of herself. She refused to shoot the films and rejected any role. I lost hope and thought that we’ll get separated soon… But then I decided to act. After all I’ve got the MOST Beautiful Woman on earth. She is the idol of more than half of men and women on earth, and I was the one allowed to fall asleep next to her and to hug her. I began to shower her with flowers, kisses and compliments. I surprised and pleased her every minute. I gave her a lot of gifts and lived just for her. I spoke in public only about her. I incorporated all themes in her direction. I praised her in front of her own and our mutual friends. You won’t believe it, but she blossomed. She became better. She gained weight, was no longer nervous and loved me even more than ever. I had no clue that she CAN love that much. And then I realized one thing: the woman is the reflection of her man.
If you love her to the point of madness, she will become it."
-Brad Pit

August 31, 2014

Virtuous wife

Who can find a virtuous wife?
For her worth is far above rubies. 

The heart of her husband safely trusts her; So he will have no lack of gain.  
She does him good and not evil, all the days of her life.
She seeks wool and flax, And willingly works with her hands.
She is like the merchant ships, She brings her food from afar. 

She also rises while it is yet night, And provides food for her household,
And a portion for her maidservants. She considers a field and buys it;
From her profits she plants a vineyard.

She girds herself with strength, And strengthens her arms.
She perceives that her merchandise is good, And her lamp does not go out by night.
She stretches out her hands to the distaff, And her hand holds the spindle.
She extends her hand to the poor, Yes, she reaches out her hands to the needy.
She is not afraid of snow for her household, For all her household is clothed with scarlet.

She makes tapestry for herself; Her clothing is fine linen and purple.
Her husband is known in the gates, When he sits among the elders of the land.
She makes linen garments and sells them, And supplies sashes for the merchants.

Strength and honor are her clothing; She shall rejoice in time to come.

She opens her mouth with wisdom, And on her tongue is the law of kindness.
She watches over the ways of her household, And does not eat the bread of idleness.
Her children rise up and call her blessed; Her husband also, and he praises her:
“Many daughters have done well, But you excel them all.”

Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing, But a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised.


Give her of the fruit of her hands, And let her own works praise her in the gates.

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I believe we know exactly what we need. We know our strengths and weaknesses at the same time. We know how to make our lives more meaningful, yet under whatever reasons, we just let ourselves get carried away. Something is definitely wrong here. Please tell me why.

August 29, 2014

Amazed

This person seriously has no idea how amazing he is. To be short, he is one of the nicest things that ever happened to my life. Just one out of few people that I truly respect and adore. He is just kind-hearted, above all. And the fact that he might not even realize it, amazes me even more. 

But,
what kind of people am I for him?

August 13, 2014

Ratih, jangan stres.

Recognize your limitations and don’t overdo it.
Don’t get too down on yourself for not getting things done.
Try to eliminate thoughts revolving around a need to be “productive”.
Recognize your needs and articulate them, especially when it comes to relationships with others.
Realize there’s nothing wrong with being “selfish”.

Cry when you need to.
Identify and eliminate toxic people and behaviors from your life.
Remember, you’re allowed to say “NO”, and you deserve love too.
Taking care of yourself and putting yourself first in a capitalist system is a form of resistance.