Huvt

“You with the sad eyes…

Don’t be discouraged

Oh I realize

It’s hard to take courage

In a word full of people

You can lose sight of it all

And the darkness inside you

Can make you feel so small…..”

The more you grow up, the more you will be likely to feel exactly that. I am in the point of life when everything looks blurry to me. I can no longer see who I really am nor what I really want in life.
I go through days when I started to learn that I have been naïve the whole time. I thought I made my priority clear, and apparently that just did not happen. You are simply not satisfied with everything, you can never have it all, not with a smallest chance. You got disappointed.
You started to question everything, if you made the right choices, if you would ever be successful, but on top of all, if you just have a bad omen. Seriously, sounds ridiculous but you just can’t help it.

Guess who is she

She knows not to get her hopes up as they always come crashing down
She heard it all befor and fell it all
She experienced more than her fair share

One touch and she'll flinch
One harsh word and she'll cry
One bad moment and shel'll break down

Yes,
She's that vulnerable as she knew what it fell to have her heart shattered before

That's why she trusts no one but herself

I want more.

Atelophobia

Feels like this heart was destructed into many pieces. After he said about this shituation that happened in me. Sorry. Sorry for bein like this.

Logika

"... Dalam kehidupan real, logika hanya dibutuhkan mungkin sepuluh persen. Artinya, yang dibutuhkan sebagian terbesar justru adalah hal-hal yang di luar logika: tenggang rasa, feeling, intuisi, tepo seliro, kearifan. Kita sering justru tidak boleh logis. Misalnya seorang pembantu rumah tangga seperti Mbok Kiyo itu yang sudah setia mengabdi empat puluh tahun dan sekarang sakit-sakitan, terlalu loyo untuk bekerja seperti dulu; apa harus dipecat akibat logika perhitungan manajemen, dia sudah tidak produktif lagi, bahkan mungkin parasit; jadi dus perlu dipecat, dikembalikan ke kampung, begitu kan, ya tidak?"

-Mangunwijaya YB dalam Burung Burung Rantau.

Lelah Terus Begini

Ingin aku mengutuk diri atas kekerdilan hati dan iman. Kenapa tak pernah berpuas diri, Ratih? Kenapa selalu ada yang salah? Kenapa harus selalu rendah diri dan skeptis?

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